What? So you thought that I would call it quits and not come back and let you know that I have found one of the secrets to my health. Working out after work is such a blessing for me...It burns away the bad feelings and lets me have some energy that I guess is stored deep inside...somewhere where I have it saved for being angry or rambunctious...I think that is how you spell that....:)

I just want to let you know also that the feelings that I have inside for my oldest are maturing and growing to accept his decision to not have me be a part of his life, unfortunately, I feel compelled to stand up for my other boys involvement in his life, and that will mean that I dont think that adoption is a viable alternative. I may regret this in the future, but he will never be able to say that I quit trying to have him be a part of my life. That is it. How can I draw up documents for this?

I am sitting here burning the copies to my linux collection. I now have lindows 4.0, mandrake, slackware, redhat and SuSe 8.2 professional, also Knoppix. Knoppix runs the best right now. The server that I have really needs another GB of RAM. That is for sure. :)

Well, that is enough for now...oh, watching LXG on the laptop with the wireless card...Nice!!! :)

Well, my brother got married....I am happy for him...I was filled with emotion and energy during this time, and I want to say that it was a great time. I am glad the my middle son was there, and missed my youngests presence...I know that I would not have been able to watch him the way that he would have needed to be watched. I will write about it more later....I am tired, and have to go to work earlier tomorrow...like 4:30 in the morning....Goodnight, and have a great week....